Thursday, 3 December 2009
I've spent a lot of my time on earth trying;
Trying to find new solutions to old problems.
Trying to make friends and fit in.
Trying not to make the wrong decision.
Trying not to upset anyone.
Trying to do the right thing.
Trying to please God and man.
Trying not to say the wrong thing.
But I'm not going to lie, I'm a little tired. Recently, but all to late, I've come to the understanding that I'm fighting an up hill battle, on my own, with a hand tied behind my back. I'm focusing on the wrong things.
If I spent as much time working diligently as I do trying to solve problems and make new systems, I probably wouldn't have the problem in the first place. My life would be more productive.
If I took care of my friends, I'd have all the friends I ever needed and I wouldn't need to fit in, because I just would, exactly as I am.
It's impossible to make a wrong decision; A friend of mine said "life is good, bad and usable. what's usable equates to 99%". All I need to do is brace myself for, what I call, "consequential wisdom" - these are the lessons earned through example, sacrifice and experience.
If I upset someone, it's not the end of the world. If my intentions are good, it's potentially the beginning of progress. Realistically, how could I possibly upset anyone; fundamentally, I'm a good person, and a person nonetheless, so please, forgive me and my humanity once in a while. Offence has so much less to do with the offender.
In regards to doing the right thing, it's almost impossible. All I know to do is follow the example of Jesus, as best I know how. If I get it wrong, refer to the latter part of the previous point. He said "It's impossible for a good tree to make bad fruit."
I can't please God with a striving mind, only a humble heart.
I'm probably less likely to say the wrong thing if I don't say as much as I do.
These are my life philosophies.
Listen to this and be blessed.